Whoa Baby!

So...when we found out we were having a baby...and then BABIES...I decided that I would try to blog weekly so I had something to look back on.  That my friends was 7 weeks ago!  So I thought I'd try my hand at this again and see how it goes.

Here's the timeline:

• April 19th we find out we're pregnant!
• April 26th we find out....surprise...you're having 2 babies!
• April 28th we get to see our babies for the first time and find out that we are 16 weeks along already and they think we're having little girls!
• May 6th we see my OBGYN for the first time and talk all about what we have in store (Perinatal appointments, extra checkups, lots of bloodwork and appointments every 2-3 weeks until July and then every 7-10 days)
• May 12th we have ultrasound #2 and they give us a 60% chance we're having two little girls!  Both are healthy and the exact same size (which is odd for twins).  My husband spends the next few weeks praying that one grows boy bits!
• May 19th we have OBGYN appointment #2 and talk nutrition, exercise and potential bedrest.  Our NP Kathy is awesome and waylays our fears.  Our bloodwork comes back clean and healthy telling us the little 'girls' have no indicators of birth defects or genetic abnormalaties.
• May 21st I end up in the hospital.  After making the husband finish his chinese food (heavens knows how long we'd be in the ER and we were starving!) we went to the ER due to severe right flank pain.  After 8 hours we found out that I had a severe UTI/bladder infection.  Little known fact...super common in us preggos.  THIS IS ALSO THE FIRST TIME I FEEL THE BABIES KICK!  <3
• May 25th-June 1st MOM COMES TO VISIT!  We finish the nursery, she made amazing baby bedding and we cleaned and dejunked the house!  Thank heavens for Moms!
• June 2nd we have our first perinatal appointment.  3.5 hours of 'baby mapping' in which they measured and checked every inch of the babes.  We find out that they ARE identical little girls and are perfectly healthy, the exact same size and weight and have no physical abnormalaties!  These measurements will be used going forward to make sure the girls are growing correctly and are healthy little ones.
• June 5th finds us taking ER trip #2....right flank pain again!  After a full run of antibiotics and me telling all of the doctors that I still wasn't feeling ok we go back a second time.  Find out that it is a full blown kidney infection and after a terrible night finally get to go home with super antibiotics. 
• June 8th-11th VEGAS!  The husband left on the 6th for his week long APP conference and I met him on the evening of the 8th.  Quick trip but the last 'vacation' we'll take before the girls make their appearance!
• June 16th Perinatal appointment #2.  The girls are doing awesome, they checked their bloodflow, heartbeats and growth.  They were kicking like mad and Baby B would NOT cooperate for anything! (She seems to be the overactive one while Baby A is super mellow).  We watched them suck their thumbs, wave and kick.  

So far it has been an intense 7 weeks and I feel like I am behind the curve!  Everyone keeps asking if we are ready for them to be here and our response is 'NO!'  We still have alot to prepare for before these two make their appearance and we're not rushing them.  We are excited, scared, nervous and just overall happy to have a perfect little family!

Today is never too late to be brand new...

I seemed to have figured out some things about myself in the last 2 weeks, I wasn't trying but all of the sudden there were a lot of hard truths to look at.  I try not to flinch when faced with self realization and this time I didn't.  Things just hit me right in the middle of the face.  Right now my head needs to lead my heart, no matter how difficult that may seem.  It's hard to know what path to take when you are just really getting to know yourself.  Minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, that's how we get by.

  

                                                                              Happiness

A jumble of thoughts...

Lately I have felt like more and more people I know don't understand how loved they are...so here goes...

YOU ARE LOVED.  Regardless of how you feel, how bad you think it is or how much bullshit seems to roll your way there is at least one person out there that loves you more than anything.

Hold your head up gorgeous, there are people who would kill to see you fall.

Bad news from work today, seems this job is a stream of endless bad news.  5 days of vacation left, feeling melancholy at the prospect of even going back to work.  Maybe it's because the weathers cooling down and falls on its way but I feel claustrophobic suddenly.  Time to try and shake it off, find what sun is left outside and sit still for awhile.  There's still time.  <3

It's a shame that we're not living in the country...

Ten days.  Ten days of no work, no homework, no traffic, no commute.  Ten days of a smiling little girl, beautiful mornings that turn into beautiful days, family dinners, sleeping in and staring at the stars.  Sometimes it's easy to forget how lucky I really am.

"When everything seems to be going against you, remember that the airplane takes off against the wind, not with it."
                                                                             --Henry Ford